was it something i said? was it something i did? was it that time i spoke up? (heaven forbid) was it politics? was it awkwardness? or my restlessness… i know socially and vocally woefully i cannot see why you don’t like me what did i say? i just dk
poems
The Pit
The pit of my stomach Drops and it drops Every time I think about you. The way you lied The way you faked The way you fooled us all. My heart you did brake In pieces on the floor. Help me assemble What you’ve shattered. You’re the mother. You said I’m on my own I’m…
Answer the Phone
You have this device, glued in your hand. Except for right now. What is your plan? To leave me here all alone To fend for myself Just pick up the phone. Whatever you’re doing it can’t be so huge to ignore my call when my heart is so blue. I thought you had my back….
I want to be loved
I want to be loved, but I want to be heard. I want to know why You don’t like me anymore. Why can’t we be friends With differing views? Why can’t we be okay If we win or we lose? Losing friends hurts my heart, But what will I do If I can’t speak my…
Excuse Me
Excuse me for having a baby. Excuse me for having a job. Excuse me for not always excusing myself even when you think I aught. Excuse me I burped. Excused me I passed. Excuse me I’m a human that needs to get out some gas. Excuse me for being new. Excuse me for not knowing….
Spaced Out
Spaced out. Spaced out. Where did my brain go? It spaced out. Sorry were you talking? I wasn’t listening. But listen to me kids! Focus! Stop spacing out!
Busy Bee
Busy busy busy bee. Why am I a busy bee? Can I rest? Can I breathe some air. Is this living? When will it be over? There is the summer. But summer school. Do I apply to summer school? I want to be with my baby. But babies need money. And security. And to not…
That Text
That text tho. Was it too short. Was it too long. Did I send it at the totally wrong time. Was it too weird. Am I too kind. Will they be able to answer in time. Why did I send it. Why did I try. Why am I so self conscious all the time. Am…
Pawing At the Door
Pawing at the door. She’s pawing at the door. I can’t poop in peace because she’s pawing at the door. Meow she says. Meow she says. Turn on the water for me. Me-OW she says.
Snow Day
Snow day. Snow day. Will there be a snow day? Spring Break is next week and we have a lot of work to do. But staying home with a big cheeked baby is nice, too. Too. Too is a star word. Will my class learn all their star words? Will I succeed as a teacher….
