I was lured into a cult at the age of 18 that masqueraded as an MLM business. Which, let’s be real, MLM’s are cults themselves. Pyramid schemes cloaked in >business opportunity< suits and skirts. So professional. So Young. So Dumb. I was freshly 18. I had big plans of becoming an architect. Or interior designer….
Oh Brother
Long message alert. I’ve been thinking about when you screamed at me. The veins on your neck sticking out, rage in your bulging eyes. Mom said you held a hand up to hit me–I’m not sure I remember that, but I was scared. It was scary. But. I’ve also done that yell to my significant…
The Purpose of this Email
The purpose of this email is to explain some of my thoughts and reasonings behind recent decisions that may have affected people in Prairie Public Schools. Grateful I am grateful for my time in the district. The last four years have been a whirlwind of ups and downs–pandemics, becoming a mom, a huge grade shift,…
Hi Fam
Hi Fam. Read when you have time. I want to make sure you all know that I love you very much. These past few months have been hard. For everyone. I’ve been doing my best to balance being there for others and maintaining my (and my family’s) sanity. I don’t think I’ve done great with…
So Twisted
Switched off my other phone for the night. [I couldn’t handle anymore.] This has been a tough year. I got bullied out of a job and had to figure out what to do next. Dad has brain cancer which caused a ton of turmoil and is still like a ticking time bomb. His twin died and…
The Pit
The pit of my stomach Drops and it drops Every time I think about you. The way you lied The way you faked The way you fooled us all. My heart you did break In pieces on the floor. Help me assemble What you’ve shattered. You’re the mother. You said I’m on my own I’m…
Answer the Phone
You have this device, glued to your hand. Except for right now. What is your plan? To leave me here all alone To fend for myself Just pick up the phone. Whatever you’re doing it can’t be so huge to ignore my call when my heart is so blue. I thought you had my back….
Sad
I tried. I really did. Gave it the ol’ college try. I gave. I really did. Gave all I had and more. I asked for help. I really did. I reached out, grasping for some solution. To a problem too big for any of us. It’s the system. The damned system. What do you do…
The One Thing I was Good at
The one thing I was good at in this cult was listening to their CDs and reading their books. This was something we were told to do instead of watching tv or listening to secular music. (Don’t worry–we could listen to Christian music.) At the weekly meetings, there would be a part where IBOs (Independent…
I can’t believe I was in a Cult
This is a realization I came to after years of telling myself it was a business that didn’t work out for me from which I had learned a lot. Then after that I realized it was a pyramid scheme and would refer to it as such to my husband. And finally, after listening to podcasts…
