i see you and you don’t like it i see you and you can’t fight it i see you and i’m right you see me as a version of you you see me and my flaws as yours i’m raw unfiltered anxious and bruised taking off this mask this learned defense i’m reborn and confused…
relationships
it’s not that deep
it’s not that deep but don’t be shallow she’s such a mess so fucking callow but so am i and so are you and why can’t i just say a few things about myself reveal my true nature i’m naked over here how much will i wager that no one in this lonely broken world…
go find less
You sit on your throne of assumptions and notions you know that you know better than me. But why? Why do you think as an outsider as a bystander as a sideliner that you know anything at all? is it your gender? is it mine? is that why you so easily criticize and villainize and…
another message
giddy with excitement to find your next message my stomach a flutter my heart like butter. every haha every heart every word i sink deeper. eagerly i set another date that’s not really a date because it cannot be a date. we chat we cackle we ask we reveal. we in this room the only…
Was it Something I Said?
was it something i said? was it something i did? was it that time i spoke up? (heaven forbid) was it politics? was it awkwardness? or my restlessness… i know socially and vocally woefully i cannot see why you don’t like me what did i say? i just dk
Totally
I get it. Totally. You’ve never crossed that boundary. You’ve never gotten personal. You’re always professional. Totally get it. Except when you did. Except when you weren’t. Except when you friended me on social media. Except when you shared photos of your pets. Except when it did get personal. And you talked. About your family….
Hi Fam
Hi Fam. Read when you have time. I want to make sure you all know that I love you very much. These past few months have been hard. For everyone. I’ve been doing my best to balance being there for others and maintaining my (and my family’s) sanity. I don’t think I’ve done great with…
So Twisted
Switched off my other phone for the night. [I couldn’t handle anymore.] This has been a tough year. I got bullied out of a job and had to figure out what to do next. Dad has brain cancer which caused a ton of turmoil and is still like a ticking time bomb. His twin died and…
The Pit
The pit of my stomach Drops and it drops Every time I think about you. The way you lied The way you faked The way you fooled us all. My heart you did break In pieces on the floor. Help me assemble What you’ve shattered. You’re the mother. You said I’m on my own I’m…
Answer the Phone
You have this device, glued to your hand. Except for right now. What is your plan? To leave me here all alone To fend for myself Just pick up the phone. Whatever you’re doing it can’t be so huge to ignore my call when my heart is so blue. I thought you had my back….
