you push into me
funny words
cute smile
i hesitate
you assure
our time together
a blur
of questions and touching
of jokes and of something
something is here
it’s not what we thought
you broke your own rules
i stay when i ought
to leave to my life
my obligations
my strife
but the escape of it all
the newness
the fall
our differences
so great
it’s absurd
you hate
everything i love
our opposites attract
curiouser and curiouser
is this real or an act?
i see a pinhole
of light
of you
your strife
then brick by brick
you block my view
into your fortress
into your warmth
i’m so cold out here
can’t i come inside?
am i so freaking frightening
that you would run away and hide?
i tiptoe
i whisper
i beckon
come hither
what will it take?
construction jackhammer or
archaeologist brush
some sandpaper
some patient waiting
but who am i kidding
do i have the capacity
to extricate you
from my brain
will i go insane
go back to mundane
back to my pain
to the strain
of rebuilding me
brick by brick
textiles and mirrors
lights and color
maybe we share
our building blocks
our refuse
our shelter
maybe we part
maybe we don’t
all i know
is i truly won’t
forget the hope
the possibility
your companionship
offered me
for today
come over
bite my neck
be my lover
share a laugh
give me your arm
scratch my back
until it’s over
or not
